A momma's moment

Rylee and I bake at least once a week. Its something I really treasure with her. Nothing fancy. Just box cakes and premade cookie dough. But those sweet moments I have mixing ingredients along side her are ranked in my top favorite.

As I was making her peanut butter and honey sandwich, I asked her where honey comes from..."from Winnie the poohs pot'. Haha!!

As she pulled up her chair to start mixing ingredients she ripped open the box to pull out the bag of mix. She flipped it over and said we need three eggs. I watches her count the eggs!! Seriously proud momma.

Then she fought me that the bowl I use with the mixer is actually a big cup because it has a handle! Say what?!

She started to add more sprinkles (there is never enough sprinkles) and I asked her where sprinkles come from..."target mommy". Child genius!

Her second favorite part is to put the paper cups into the pan followed by her favorite part, taking too many "one" licks from the batter bowl.

These ten minutes made every chaotic moment pause. And really reminded me I'm doing something really right around her!

And she offered to wash dishes! She's in the running for favorite kid of the day!

Five Months

Little Jake turns five months old today!

Dear time, slow down. Your moving too fast.

Five Months
Rolling over like crazy and a wiggle worm when held
Laughing out loud!
Smiling for anyone who loves on him
Had his first taste of applesauce and wasn't impressed
Nursing every 3-4 hours
Slept through the night a week ago!!!
developed a love for the aden and anais security blankets and lovey
He enjoys being held in the ergo or wrap
Enjoyed his 14th disney trip last week
Attempting to sit but only last a few seconds till he face plants
He loves his sister amd she enjoys making him laugh with silly faces
He is a complete mommas boy!

Sweet Jake

Sweet Jacob Ryan

My love for you is like no other. Its strong, yet gentle. Fierce, yet calm. You changed who am I as a mother. You gave me more laughter through chaos, my tears of joy, and daily reminders how amazingly lucky I am to be home with you and your sister. You've helped me to slow down a little and let laundry sit in trade for naps with you.

And let's not be fooled, you contribute to me spending more at target.

I believe I've earned another badge to be worn on my sleeve for how far we've come in nursing. Nursing you was a struggle the first few months. I had no idea what I was doing, but you were so patient. During those long days of feeling like a 24 hr milk maid, you kept along with me and didn't fight me as I struggled. Nursing you has been a beautiful part of our early relationship and I can fully understand why other mommas rave about it.

While pregnant with you, mommas would tell me how special the bond is with their sons. How its different from their daughters. I only loved your sister. I only knew girly cuddles.

I get it. I so get it now. A son is like no other.

The way you look at me when I hold you tight in the wrap shoots right to my soul. The way you hold my finger while nursing calms my chaos inside. How you love to be hip held so you can place your head over my heart tops it off. There is just something about you, something about your love for me that rocks my socks off.

You love for me is caring. You love me in a way no else will ever compare to.

Its beautiful

I'm thankful for the mother you've shaped me to be. Your love fills the hearts of our family. From a person so small and unable to speak to me with words, you sure do light up a room with your smile and sweet heart.

As the sun starts to rise and you fall back asleep for your morning nap, I think I'll hold on to you a little longer before your sister rises and your dad comes home from work. Because my sweet Jake, you'll be five months old in just a few weeks and I can barely keep it together. Stay little. Let's not rush this time away. I won't always be with you and I can't muster up the courage to face that just yet.